Created with: Twine (Harlowe), Google Docs, Photoshop, lots and lots of scrap paper.
Creation time: Approximately 9 months, released October 2020.
Deficit began as an experiment in format: to test the waters of Interactive Fiction, and to explore storytelling in a medium with a low bar to entry. Twine provides an easy way to quickly iterate on a story, but with enough complexity to support branching dialogue. I was inspired by games like Depression Quest and Nonbinary, and encouraged to start writing Deficit after describing in a tweet having struggled through a conference where I just could not pay attention. Subsequently, I engaged with First Person Scholar to eventually publish my work, and who gave me excellent feedback as I made the game. You can read my Artist's Statement on FPS here.
The game is structured as a series of vignettes; in it, you will explore several scenes inspired by real-life experiences. I believe that powerful stories can be driven by gameplay, and as such, the experiences in the game are bite-sized, punchy, and varied— much like how my own attention span works.
One of the most rewarding experiences in making Deficit has been in the responses to it. Numerous people have left comments and given feedback about how it made them feel.
I've had people message me that playing it finally made them seek a diagnosis, or understand others or themselves better. A high school teacher in the US emailed me to ask if I could talk about the game and answer questions for their students. I feel humbled by how many people have shared and played my game— over 1750 as of June 2021.
I wanted Deficit to be an accessible way for anyone (including non-gamers) to experience a slice of what ADHD life is like for some. There aren't many great examples of depictions of mental health in media - and those that do exist are often negative and harmful. In an industry which often struggles with representation, I wanted to contribute something that told a story, but also serves to educate and validate others' experiences.
I played a lot of Choose-Your-Own-Adventure books as a kid, and loved text adventures. I wanted to capture the magic of both, but also distribute the game with as low a technological bar as possible. Twine was a natural choice, as was itch.io as a platform. With the only requirements being a device and an internet connection, I believe I was able to reach a very wide audience.
A side-effect of working on this project was learning CSS and web development. Since Twine basically runs as a webpage in a browser, I had to learn HTML and CSS— knowledge which I used to make the website you're visiting!
I originally intended to have more in-depth gameplay with some of the minigames. While others involved simple scripts that worked fine in Twine/CSS, one minigame required a lot more work than I had anticipated.
I also faced problems with packaging. I developed and tested primarily on Firefox— and did not realize until close to release that every browser parses CSS differently. Additionally, since Twine more or less runs as a website, Mobile was an additional hurdle. My scope had desktop play in mind, so Mobile suffered. Deficit is playable on Mobile, however— it just doesn't play as well!